Leona

War

2008-04-14T07:11:00Z

We live in a culture that promotes democratic values of being fair to one and all, the importance of fitting into a group, and knowing how to cooperate with other people.

We are taught early in life that those who are outwardly combative and aggresive pay a social price: unpopularity and isolation....

The problem for us is that we are trained and prepared for peace, and we are not at all prepared for what confronts us in the real world --- WAR.

This war exists on several levels. Most obviously, we have our rivals on the other side. The world has become increasingly competitive and nasty. In politics, business, even the arts, we face opponents who will do almost anything to gain an edge. More troubling and complex, however, are the battles we face with those who are supposedly on our side.

There are those who outwardly play the team game, who act very friendly and agreeable, but who sabotage us behind the scenes, use the group to pormote their own agenda.

Other, more difficult to spot, play subtle games of passive aggression, offering help that never comes, instilling guilt as a secret weapon.

On the surface everything seems peaceful enough, but just below it, it is every man and woman for him - or herself, this dynamic infecting even families and relationships.

The culture may deny this reality and promote a gentler picture, but we know it and feel it, in our battle scars.

~ Robert Greene~

Handling Love

2007-04-08T01:25:00Z

If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart.

If you find someone else in love with you and you don't love him/her, feel honored that love came and called at your door, but gently refuse the gift you cannot return. Do not take advantage, do not cause pain.

How you deal with love is how you deal with you, and all our hearts feel the same pains and joys, even if our lives and ways are different.

If you fall in love with another, and she falls in love with you, and then love choose to leave, do not try to reclaim it or to assess blame, let it go. There is a reason and there is a meaning. You will know in time.

Remember that you don't choose love. Love chooses you. All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life. Feel the way it fills you to overflowing, then reach out and give it away.

Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you

Give it to others who deem it poor in spirit.

Give it to the workd around you in anyway you can.

This is where many lovers go wrong. Having been so long without love, they understand love only as a need. They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love, and they begin to look at loves as something that flows to them rather than from them.

The first blush of new love is filled to overflowing, but as their love cools, they revert to seeing their love as need. They cease to be someone who generates love and instead become someone who seeks love. They forget that the secret of love is that it is a gift, and that it cand be make to grow only by giving it away.

Remember this, and keep it to your heart. Love has its own time, its own seasons, and its own reason for coming and going. You cannot bribe it or coerce it , or reason it into saying. You can only embarace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you.

But if it chooses to leave from your heart of from the heart of your lover, there is nothing you cand do and there is nothing you should do. Love always has been and always will be a mystery.

Be glad that it came to live for a moment in your life.

Don't deny love just only you don't want to be hurt ....

Un gand tarziu in noapte.

2006-10-16T05:32:00Z

Cum potzi spune iubesc,............., cand nu stii de fapt ca iubirea este mai mult decat un cuvat frumos soptit la urechea unei persoane, este mai mult decat a merge alaturi de cineva pe drumul ce itzi este dat sa mergi, sau il alegi...., este mai mult decat sa simtzi furnicaturi in suflet si sa te simtzi plutind,....... este mai mult decat un sentiment care te inaltza, .......este mai mult decat o stea stralucitoare ce s-a aprins si apare in fiecare noapte veghindu-tzi somnul , ....este mai mult decat un DA spus in fatza altarului,.... este mai mult decat focul ce itzi incalzeste inima, este mai mult decat ...... tot ce ai crezut ca aceste doua cuvinte pot reprezenta sau chiar pot fi , ..... pentru ca tanjesti dupa ele , pentru ca vrei cu orice pretz sa le auzi , sa te mintzi ca exista ca le simtzi ca sunt asa cum ai visat in fiecare noapte de singuratate,... in fiecare clipa de ralitate,..... in fiecare zi in care singur plimbandu-te pe strada vedeai tineri tzinandu-se de mana si zambind,..... pentru ca sufletul itzi este pustiit si trist , in noptzi tarzii pline de zgomotul furtunii , furtuna care te sperie si itzi intareste dorintza de a simtzi pe cineva aproape acum si maine si poimaine.......

Nu singuratatea te va face sa faci alegerea cea mai buna, nu tristetzea te va determina sa alegi cel mai bine, nu lacrimile te vor lasa sa vezi adevarul, nu disperearea te va face sa iei o hotarare, nu furia te va face sa itzi gasesti drumul , nu teama itzi va da putere de a te ridica de la pamant cand esti doborat si simtzi ca nu mai potzi, ca totul e in zadar, nu frustrarea te va ridica ......

Opreste-te o clipa , ramai tu cu tine si priveste cerul instelat , dar nu privi o stea anume, ci pe toate, si uita-te in sufletul tau , incearca sa simtzi care e steaua la care ai vrea sa ajungi , priveste apoi lumina lunii , si incearca sa luminezi drumul sper dorintzle cele mai mari, sa simtzi caldura ei , lasa muzica noptzii sa te patrunda si incearca sa itzi simtzi cum se elibereaza de durere, de tristetze , de greutatea care il apasa, si usor deschide ochii dar de data asta fara sa mai privesti cerul sau stele sau marea, ci doar pe tine, minte trup si suflet, eliberare, liniste sufelteasca si putere.

Pentru a putea lupta trebuie sa fii calm si puternic, pentru a putea merge , itzi trebuie fortza si incredere , pentru a putea crede , trebuie sa crezi in tine, pentru a putea pretzui iubirea, trebuie sa stii sa te pretzuiesti pe tine......

Adevarata "putere" a unui om nu consta in faptul ca e in varf, ci cat de repede se ridica in momentul in care cade.

Probleme

2006-08-10T18:32:00Z

Eram in banca..., acum ani de zile in urma,.... ora de matematica si mereu aveam cate o problema de rezolvat, sau ... acasa .... in camaruta mea albastra .... ma prindea 4 dimineatza chinuindu-ma sa o rezolv, ....alte ori o rezolvam imediat; o rezolvare exista mereu, diferenta dintre ele consta in dificultate si cat de pregatita eram pentru acel nivel..... din ce unghi o priveam ....

Viatza ..... a trecut .... problemele care atunci erau impartzite in - algebra, - geometrie, si - analiza .... s-au transformat in probleme de suflet, - de sanatate, si financiare. Diferentza de nunatza, dar nu de pregatire.

Problemele din urma ... nu mai constau in a sti theoreme, formule matematice, cifre....ele constau in puterea noastra de a trece peste ele, ..... in modul cum le rezolvam,.... in experientza de viatza pe care o avem , ... pentru ca, rezolvarea lor nu mai consta in nici o formula matematica , ci in dorintza noastra de a ajunge acolo unde ne-am dorit, sa atingem acea stea .... la care mici fiind priveam cu atata incantare ....

Dar pentru a atinge un anumit punct al vietzii te lovesti mereu de probleme, iar acum nu mai sunt simple probleme pe care , daca nu stii sa le rezolvi intrebi profesorul si acesta itzi arata rezolvarea, itzi explica, .. , ci sunt frustrari , durere, lacrimi, suferintza, .... vazand ca nu se mai rezolva doar dupa o noapte nedormita, doar dupa o saptamana de cautari , studii si sarguintza.

Uneori itzi ia ani de zile, sa o rezolvi, alte ori ... orice ai face nu vei gasi solutzia si asta te va determina sa apuci pe o noua cale pentru ca, cea pe care o luasei te-a dus intr-un punct mort. Alte ori , .. oricat te-ai incapatzana si te-ai zbate ajungi mereu la acealsi rezultat : zero infinit, sau contradictzie.

"Cind te-ai nascut, plingeai si toata lumea din jurul tau radea. Traieste-ti viata asa incat, la sfirsit, sa mori zambind, in timp ce toti ceilati te vor plange. "

Dedicatzii ( Part 3)

2006-04-05T06:10:00Z

Next

Mireille , uite ca am gasit "prada" :P

"Don't tell me

Don't tell me to stop
Tell the rain not to drop
Tell the wind not to blow
Cause you said so, mmm

Tell the sun not to shine
Not to get up this time, no, no
Let it fall by the way
But don't leave me where I lay down

Tell me love isn't true
It's just something that we do
Tell me everything I'm not
But please don't tell me to stop

Tell the leaves not to turn
But don't ever tell me I'll learn, no, no
Take the black off a crow
But don't tell me I have to go. "

Next:

Anouk, ca tot e trimisa la nani tot timpul ca e mica :)

I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you (leave me) ... send me to nani :P
but I do do feel that
I do do will miss you much
miss you much...

Viatza!

2006-04-03T07:39:00Z

Numai privind aceste cuvinte gandul tau zboara de la firul de iarba care isi face aparitzia vestind viatza naturii, pana la pruncul care prin primul lui tzipat vesteste aparitzia pe aceasta lume. Cineva a spus ca viatza ne este data fara sa ni se ceara voie , si ne este luata fara sa fim intrebatzi, ceea ce exista intre aceste doua limite depinde doar de noi.

"Viatza este un fragment de existentza , o clipa asezata intre doua eternitatzi, influentzata de tot ce s-a petrecut in trecut si influentzata de tot ce va urma in viitor. Singura sansa ca s-o intzelegi estes-o privesti in contextul acesta al vesniciei."

Viatza este o lupta intr-o jungla, unde fiarele sunt oameni deghizatzi, unde franghiile sunt doar
vise si sperantze, de care ne agatzam zilnic, unde zumzetul fioros al departarii, nu este altceva decat zgomotul omenirii, ....

Totul in viatza este doar incercarea, risti ... daca castigi , incerci sa mergi mai sus cu o treapta, sa atingi un nou vis, o noua incercare, o noua sperantza, daca pierzi , incerci sa te ridici, sau sa o iei de la capat. Totul e sa incerci .... dar te trezesti intr-o dimineatza ca ajungi sa incerci sa te ridici din pat, si atunci te intrebi: Oare ce am incercat toata viatza mea?

De multe ori vrem mai mult timp, spunem ca timpul nu este de ajuns, ca nu puteam sa fac aia sau ailalta, ca nu am avut timp sa termin sa devin ceea ce am vrut sa fiu , cand eram doar un copil iar visele erauatat de naive si animate, ei bine, de fapt nu e vorba de timp , ci de noi, doar de noi depinde cum si catpretzuim fiecare zi fiecare minut , fiecare clipa pe langa care trecem , pentru ca nu timpul trece pe langa noi, ci noi pe langa el. Doar de noi depinde daca simtzim fiecare picatura de timp pe obraz, sauo lasam pur si simplu sa alunece si sa dispara ca si cum nu ar fi fost. Oamenii mari niciodata nu s-au plans ca nu au destul timp, totzi incepand de la Platon, Aristotel , ...si pana in ziua de azi , tot ceea ce au facut , au facut in numai 24 de ore pe zi.

Inainte de a fi ceea ce suntem,
Am fost ceea ce vom fi,
Totul e scris in legea firii
Iar dupa noapte va fi mereu o noua zi.

Dedicatzii speciale. ( Part 2)

2006-02-14T04:26:00Z

Next: 'Iggins ( My fair lady) . Sper ca nu mai e nevoie de a asocia acest nume cu id-ul corespunzator de pe forum. In caz de tot nu va datzi seama o sa va zic doar ca acest id este o "prisma perfect inchisa".

I'm an ordinary man
Who desires nothing more
Than just an ordinary chance
To live exactly as he likes
And do precisely what he wants.

An average man am I,
Of no eccentric whim,
Who likes to live his life, free of strife,
Doing whatever he thinks is best for him.
Oh, Just an ordinary man.

But! Let a woman in your life,
And your serenity is through.
She'll redecorate your home
from the cellar to the dome,
Then go to the enthralling fun
Of overhauling you.

Let a woman in your life,
And you're up against a wall.
Make a plan and you will find
She has something else in mind,
And so rather than do either
You do something else that neither likes at all.

You want to talk of Keats or Milton;
She only wants to talk of love.
You go to see a play or ballet
And spend it searching for her glove.

Let a woman in your life,
And you invite eternal strife.
Let them buy their wedding bands
For those anxious little hands.
I'd be equally as willing
For a dentist to be drilling
Than to ever let a woman in my life!

I'm a very gentle man,
Even-tempered and good-natured
Whom you never hear complain;
Who has the milk of human kindness
By the quart in every vein.

A patient man am I,
Down to my fingertips;
The sort who never could, ever would,
Let an insulting remark escape his lips.
A very gentle man.

But! Let a woman in your life,
And patience hasn't got a chance.
She will beg you for advice.
Your reply will be concise,
And she'll listen very nicely,
Then go out and do precisely what she wants!

You were a man of grace and polish
Who never spoke above a hush.
Now all at once you're using language
That would make a sailor blush.

Let a woman in your life,
And you're plunging in a knife!
Let the others of my sex
Tie the knot around their necks.
I'd prefer a new edition
Of the Spanish Inquisition
Than to ever let a woman in my life.

I'm a quiet living man,
Who prefers to spend the evenings
In the silence of his room;
Who likes an atmosphere as restful
As an undiscovered tomb.

A pensive man am I,
Of philosophic joys;
Who likes to meditate, contemplate,
Free from humanity's mad inhuman noise.
A quiet living man.

But! Let a woman in your life,
And your sabbatical is through.
In a line that never ends
Come an army of her friends;
Come to jabber and to chatter,
And to tell her what the matter is with you!

She'll have a booming, boisterous family,
Who will descend on you en masse.
She'll have a large Wagnerian mother
With a voice that shatters glass.

Let a woman in your life!
Let a woman in your life!

I shall never let a woman in my life.

Next: va urma

Dedicatzii speciale. ( just fun , or maybe not)

2006-02-12T23:29:00Z

Voi incepe cu Master Yoda :

A long time ago in a galaxy far, far away...( nu cred ca mai trebuie sa precizez numele filmului)

Yoda: Hard to see, the dark side is.

Yoda: Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering. I sense much fear in you.

Yoda: Always two; no more no less. A master and an apprentice.

Luke: All right, I'll give it a try.
Yoda: No! Try not! Do or do not. There is no try.

Luke: I want my lamp back! I'm gonna need it to get out of this slimy mudhole!
Yoda: Mudhole? Slimy? My home this is!

Next: Trinity

Trinity: Neo... nobody has ever done this before.
Neo: I know. That's why it's going to work.

Trinity: Please just listen. I know why you're here, Neo. I know what you've been doing... why you hardly sleep, why you live alone, and why night after night, you sit by your computer. You're looking for him. I know because I was once looking for the same thing. And when he found me, he told me I wasn't really looking for him. I was looking for an answer. It's the question that drives us. It's the question that brought you here. You know the question, just as I did.
Neo: What is the Matrix?

Next: .. va urma.

You can't walk away from love!

2006-02-06T08:32:00Z

You can't walk away from love!, asa incepe o poveste, asa incepe un capitol asa incepe un sentiment ce te loveste dintr-o data si din acea clipa toata viatza vei ramane condamnat, mai rau ca un detzinut, pecetea pusa pe sufletul si inima ta , pe intreaga-tzi viatza,te va urmari in fiecare clipa a existentzei tale.

Vor fi zile in care vei zambi si vei fi fericit ca o portzi cu tine , ca sufletul tau este plin de ea, ca toata fiintza ta este dedicata ei, dar vor fi si momente in care o vei simtzi grea si dureroasa.

Dar orice ai face , oriunde ai fugi, oricat ai vrea sa uitzi nu se mai poate, nu vei putea decat sa traiesti in continuare cu ea sa te amagesti sau sa fii fericit ca o portzi, depinde doar de tine.

Dragostea si casatoria inseamna tandretze, respect, lupata continua de a o pastra, de a o mentzine mereu vie, e ca un foc care se aprinde si care daca nu este intretzinut va arde din ce in ce mai putzin si se va stinge, dar mereu va ramane cenusa, care te va lasa sa aprinzi un alt foc, dar niciodata nu il vei mai vedea atat de frumos si calduros; dragostea nu este lovitura de trasnet, nu este insomnia, banuiala nejusta,dominatzia insuportabila.

In dragoste nu va conta cat ai pus sau cat ai dat, si nici cat ai primit atata timp cat oferi totul si primesti totul.

Daca inteligentza te face sa dai viatza actziunii, daca curajul te face sa devii erou, ei bine.. dragostea te face sa simtzi linistea sufleteasca , sa simtzi ca nu traiesti doar pentru tine si pentru actziuni lipsite de viatza, actziuni pline de lucruri lumesti, care vor ramene sau nu peste timpuri.

Dragostea este sentimentul atat de puternic incat poate strabate distantze imense mai repede decat viteza luminii, poate lupta cu tigrii si toate animalele fioroase fara sa fie ranita, poate traversa un ocean inot fara a obosi, poate face minuni, atata
timp cat este simtzita si traita cu tot sufletul trupul si creierul, ... cu toata fiintza.

Dragostea este motivatzia care a creat atatea opere de arta, dar care a dus si la atatea razboaie. Este de fiecare data simtzita si gandita diferit, dar cert este ca este dorita de oricine, incepand de la cersetor si terminand cu regi.

Oricat ai nega, oricat ai spune ca nu o vrei ca nu itzi trebuie, ca potzi trai fara ea, cert este ca:

"You can't walk away from LOVE."